lost

recently, i lost a lot of things...
i lost my necklace...
lost otherthings not important.
for me, friend is everything in my life
i lost friend...
a friend not a friend anymore...
it's very hurt
everyday, memories flow out from mind.
tear non stop

learning languages

learning english as second language...
it's cannot be rush...
unfortunately, i always do things in rush...
finally everythings cannot be done perfectly...

i lost my native language, but i didn't lost my comman native language...
my native language is hakka and hai loh hong... i didn't speak it with my parents when i was small even until now...
i always used chinese - comman native language speak to my parents and friend...
even thinking also used in chinese way...

the more you making the mistake, the more you learn from it. But if it doesn't have anybody help to correct it, will we be able to learned from the mistake and get improve from it?

sneaker-a type of shoes good for running and walking (运动鞋/跑步鞋）

25102008(隔了一年半的帖子發佈）

杂乱的心情...

混乱的思索...

搁置太旧的文字

再也唤不回...



心情也无法在形容...



暗恋的味道

是幸福也是痛苦

幸福

有时候有他的关心和疼爱

痛苦

当他不再关心和疼爱

看着他身边出现另一个女生

心如刀割...



爱

用错了方式

断送了爱情

the bad english i have
the bad listening i have
the bad speaking i have
the bad writing i have...

nothing he can share with me...
i found difficult to share a lot of things with him...
i hope i can share with him...
at the end... there's nothing i can share it for you...

i wish to be closer with you...
we stay at a distance, more far than a day


maybe i used wrong way to love you~
i'm sorry~ dear~

maybe i should let you go from my heart~

人生是苦是乐
一切在于一念之中...
人生残酷一面，
竟是眼前一见...
人心之变，
竟如海底捞针，难以猜测...

他的改变，
难以接受...

毁灭记忆
能彻底忘记吗？

人生

每个人都有不同方式来点缀自己的人生...
有些人
主动努力寻找活动，交际点缀人生
有些人
希望是身边的人，最爱的人来点缀他/她的人生...

人生有起有落，
没有人可以预测到他的未来
但是他的未来可以自己掌握...
自要他愿意勇敢的做决定，
他要怎样的未来生活，
他可以自己决定，
甚至活出生命的气息

money loss...

money loss agains in this 2 day~
money nvr loss for a long time....
only 2 day, loss RM40...

maybe i such make some trick to check how the money loss when i work together with that collegue

心感（二）

古人说：“今宵有酒今宵醉。”

也许我今晚下班后，该今宵有茶今宵醉。泡一壶刺激性超高的茶，麻醉自己什么都不去想...

09082008

"nothing is more painful than realizing he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him"

yaa... when we love someone, we alway hope we are everything to we belove... but when realizing is not, is really very painful, sadness... no mood to do anything, unless we have very well emotional management to hide the painful, sadness in our heart and never show it out in front of other people, only show it out when we alone...


i'm not very good in emotional management, but i hide it everything inside my heart...
no people now about it... no people know what is my problem

unknow emotion

just now wanna log in my blog, i just realise my little brother got a blogger also. So great, if i have same english level with him, can write, read, listen even can speak very well. Maybe i use too much chinese already, thinking from chinese style 1st before i want spoke in english. Last saturday and sunday, my workplace got a new collegue, his named Rajak, he should be my senior also. Rajak has work as a trainnee in my company before, he has a great sales record before. I'm quite blur, alway called his name wrongly as Razak.

Today, i talked a lot with cheasen, talking about the problem between he and me. I don't know how to continue to maintain our relationship. Maybe our relationship just like two of the parallel line, never has the meet point. What's the best way to solve this problem. Maybe i should keep my mouth up, stop teasing him. Quite a sad day, even i felt happy today because i ate a lot of delicious food in my hometown. Maybe i also don't know how to maintain a friendship.

Actually, i considering whether want to go to taiwan for future study. Just got 2 people knew about this planning. Unfortunately, this 2 people is not my family member, they're just my friends. One of them is Cheasen.

So nice back to hometown. I'm really hope can stay here for more longer time. Time to sleep now~ Bye bye see yaa...

给大哥的话：

大哥：

谢谢你对小妹的关心...
也谢谢你纵容小妹的任性...
虽然小妹和你是没有血缘关系的兄妹~

但是小妹还是要说那句~ 谢谢你~

blur blur wen

blur blur wen就是blur blur susu...
每天工作都出错误，一天至少做错3样东西...
今天差点做错东西...去银行，带少钱去~还好同事透过电话把我叫回去店里~

每天沟通都有问题...
就包括跟他也一样...

忍痛将他的信息和电话号码从电话删除...
他给/回的信息收在手机里有两百多封...
删除记忆里的回忆...

我和他之间，只是能做普通朋友...
彼此之间有缘无份...
曾希望彼此之间能够在一起，但现实的结果是： 不！

彼此之间在一起，都是以沉默为主...
话题除了气话，都没其他的共同点...

祝你：找到你的幸福！快乐！


good bye my gor~

tired...

damn shit low yat managemnt, force the shops there running business from 10am-1opm...
low yat actually is a open smoking place, although is has air condition there...
working 10 hour per day, income still same... nothing get much...
attend classes for 3 day in the early of the morning...
2 out of 3 day, rushing for working from kajang to kl by bus after attended the class...
slept in bus when on the way go to work...
no so much time for me to do my revision...
next 2 week, exam is coming soon... still haven't prepare anything for my exam...
luckly, my boss allowed me to attend the classes...

now, most of the laptop driver is given for the VISTA OS base...
if want install WIN XP, the notebook driver is get from other similar spec notebook spec or similar hardware driver which from other website... driver can work for a period, after that there will be some problem for the drive...

I going to change my laptop to dell XPS, if installed win xp, will it still going to hv driver problem, or just install vista os in order to avoid the driver problem...
t
feel helpness for my family members problem...
my poor sister and i, need to find out is there any way to solve the problem...
aiks...
we have to be strong to face and solve this problem...
hope everythings will be alright...

miss him...miss him...miss him...
who is that guy? i don't know....
but sure is not my ex.... hahaha...


night night

唉

唉~ 我的组织能力真的够差经！！！
每天都做错东西~
没有一样东西是不会做错的~
老实给account部门的人更多的工作量！！！

我！ 我真的是要对自己吐血了

工作狂working krazy

娃哈哈哈~
我果然真的是名副其实的工作狂，可以为工作而忘记吃东西的人...
就算叫了外卖，食物到了也不吃的那种，等到工作做完了才吃 XD
以后还是怪怪的用华语来写blog咯~

三哥对我很好但是也很坏蛋，老是欺负他的小妹~唉~
二哥自从来了kl工作以后就很少联络了~
至于大哥嘛~ 还是有大哥的风范~虽然人在新加坡工作，但是每次看到小妹上线就会问候小妹的境况，关心小妹~

如果

如果有一天我跑去喝酒...
有誰會阻止我呢？


如果有一天我跑去跳海，
又有誰會阻止呢？

0点

也许今天凌晨以后，
我们
什么关系都不是了~
回到了零点

你的话语，
有了厌倦，厌烦的味道~

这时刻以后，你不会再有这样的感受...

兄妹

也许跟他的兄妹关系维持不下去了~
也许他开始厌倦我给他带来的麻烦~
放工坐不到巴士，打电话叫他载...
想吃其他食物，打电话叫他载我去...
想做处理某些事情但又不会去，他载我去...

今天，两人几乎像进入南极...
没有话题...
不再想以前了~

gor~ 你放心，我不会再给你任何的麻烦了~
信息/msn也会减少...
还你一个清静的耳根

11.3.08

今天，
我竟然
为了他所说的东西...
哭了~

哭了~
不是因为他说的东西...
而是
因为他...

傻乎乎的自己，
从不是何时开始...
就这样让自己跌入不该跌的谷里...
不知几时，自己的心放得如此的开...

也许经过这事情后，
我该把自己的心收回...

心，收回吧~
那是不可能会发生的事情
别想那么多了~


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一个我不认识的网友，
告诉我，我的部落格出现在马来西亚中文部落格的列表~
觉得难以相信的我，跟他要了网址...
自己亲自去证实这件事...
果然是真的~ 真的出现在那名单里~
名单里还有很多人的部落格网址...

辛苦了马来西亚中文部落格的收集人员...
那么辛苦地找出，马来西亚人写的部落格~

辛苦你们咯~

照片

1. taiping clock tower 2.

傻子

从到槟城工作直到辞职回乡休息，加上最近碰到一些事情...
突然觉得自己很傻...
搭巴士，一辆干净，一辆肮脏的巴士，
心想干净的巴士该有经过我作工的地方，
原来答案是没有，
因为嫌弃，所以错过了机会...
错过了机会，却傻傻地等待更好的机会，
就算条件不好的，也宁可放弃不愿把握机会...

而他，
永远是不会来看的...
这...
是
我的秘密地盘...
想写下我和他的秘密...

也许一切是自己太傻...
也是他要的是绿茶，而我也许只是次等的茶...
多么希望自己是普洱...
我也太高估自己了~ 哪里有可能会是普洱...

这几天一直用数码相机乱拍照...
对于理论一窍不通的我，相机设置乱设...
拍出来的照片，时好时坏...
有时候，拍到自己想要的效果...但是再继续想拍出同样的效果...
却怎么拍，也拍不出想要的效果

starbuck wen

today i be starbuck wen agains...
still at the starbuck few hours ald... sit at here start from 3pm until now with my pig gor gor who worked in singapore and enjoy his holiday now in malaysia...

gor gor had bring my birthday present for me...
my presents is perfume, a book about pu er tea, a joss decoration, and a doll decoration which can shaking its head and big big ang pau ^^


today my another gor gor( penang ) no time, if not, my two gor gor can meet up together ^^

心情日记

最近的心情很烦躁下...
只是跟他说同事请我吃雪糕...他就说我同事是我的男朋友！
不管怎样跟他解释，他依然说我有男朋友！！！
气到我不再想跟他说话！
气到现在还在气 = =!!!

这几天的天气还蛮热下,
走在太阳底下，随时随地都可以变烧鸡...

昨天和joaan到住处后街的mamak档吃东西...无意间给我发现到有一间有卖susu lembu...
哇哈哈哈~ 我好幸福哦~
以后上班之前可以到那边去用餐和享用我喜爱的susu lembu...
看来malat, frenkie和面包皮帮我取的匿名还蛮适合的... susu~
haha~ 越来越爱上这称号了~
谢谢你们哦~ 我的不是人朋友~

现在在queensbay的starbuck上网~
今天就尽情地 放松自己~ 明天才去逛街买新衣

aiyoo... my english really too poor already...
lazy reading...
no idea at all how to improve it...

lazy will destroy everythings...



last night chatting with delon around 1 hour...
he asked me play with fire, then will feel better...
he asked me give a nice guy a chance, and true to him initiative...
aiyoo... delon treat me as his sister, he teach me a lot of things...

but this time this thing, i hard to do it, especially initiative to true to him... =.=!!!
i scared to be cheat by other people and i'm a follower

开心开心开心 ^^

在槟城工作已经有一段时间了~ 虽然有点闷但是还蛮开心的~
同事和屋友相处得还好~
至于gor呢~ 他对我太好了，好到同事都误以为他是我男朋友

gor真的是对我很好，每当晚上我坐不到巴士的时候，他不管有多累都会专程来载我回家^^

我真的好幸福哦~ 有那么多人疼~

sunyata哥哥之前到中国公干，就给我买了一本关于普洱茶的书...^^