Sunday, December 27, 2009

27/12/2009

Am i very bad?
why i'm always treat myself badly...

i purposely make you felt irritating on me...
you have very strong discipline,
but i'm not...i'm only hv poor discipline...


i meet a fortuneteller in KTM last wednesday...
he said if i give up the chance for love in this year, i only can get it when i'm 29 years old and 34 years old...

i give it up this year...
i'm not good enough for you~
sorry, my dear~
sorry that i let you disappointed this time.
sorry that i break your heart.
sorry that i hurt you...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

17/12/2009

i'm scared...
i scared to say xxx...
i'm not confidence to myself...
i scared you will leave me after you know my real character...


xxxx

Monday, December 14, 2009

13/12/2009

I wondering there,
will you regret if you know the truth...
will you?
will you?

will you regret?
all my mind was full of this question...
i dare not to give an answer or excuse for myself...
i dare not face up myself...
i'm not confident to myself...

oh my god,
what should i do?
keep going waitting someone who won't stay beside me
or
accept it?

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

8-12-2009

因不想再两间店跑来跑去~
转到另外一间店,就放弃另一间店的事物...
我被责怪没有责任感,态度变得超级差...
以前刚开始工作的时候,我是在另一间店工作...
那时候的我可以为了他的要求,放下当下的职务,跑去他那边帮他...
现在完全没有了...
对他而言,我已经不再是以前的我...
我的脾气一天比一天的差...

其实说真的,好想把自己封闭起来...
这个世界哪有可能让我把自己封闭起来...

不想再站在前线,想转去幕后...